Monthly Archives: January 2014

War Journal Entry #5

Back to the war… It’s been extremely tough posting these.. But I promised this year I’d be better. This is a big step forward.

July 9

Another day gone
It didn’t show today
Anxiety was out in force
I can fight one, but not both
Getting worked up easy
Especially at work
Why?
It’s not worth it, it won’t help
Is it because I care?
Maybe
Still an attachment to work
Need to detach and focus more on me
Health #1, Work #100
Rooms a mess, are you a child?
Grow up
Clean up
Get healthy
Get happy
Grow and move on
That’s what this revolution should be
Museum next weekend, no time off
Take a knee, take a day
Heal for the next round

2014

Happy New Year

I thought I would take a break from my war journal entries this week to focus on some other matters

In the new year we always hear about resolutions from people…whether they be to lose weight, quit smoking, eat healthier, etc…. I’ve made some in the past and like most people I was unsuccessful.
The problem I find with resolutions is that there is no repercussions if you do not follow through, no major motivating factor to keep you on the rails no matter how rough things get…

Taking this into account, consulting with the advice of a friend I began to look at the concept of promises and oaths. When you make a promise or take an oath, it’s generally to or for someone else… And if you break this promise/oath you live with it for the rest of your life… Over the years in my life I have made a few promises…. And I’ve kept everyone.. Promises to other people, to look after their interests… So I started thinking… Why not make a promise to myself..

So here goes… I promise to get healthy once and for all.. Physically and Mentally.. This war within has so stop, and only I have the capability to do so.. I promise to work day in and day out to keep this promise.. It’s not going to be easy, i know this. But a promise is a promise and I have to hold myself to it.

So here I go, back into the tunnel.. I can’t wait for you to meet me on the other side.. In the promise land

Happy New Year